Where ARE you???

So as promised, I will continue the story of my journey from PDP to job... It started off with high hopes. I was going to get a job right away, and be teaching that September. Those were my goals, my hopes and my plan. God however isn't ruled by us, we are not his counsellors, He is the one in charge, in case anyone was thinking otherwise. So I applied all over, Surrey, Abbotsford, Richmond, Vancouver (interesting enough, not Langley Christian, cause I couldn't find the street!) and I waited for the phone call telling me I had an interview. I got a call from Vancouver Christian, and went to the interview, which seemed to go well, it was for a part time position (which I really didn't want, but thought it was good experience to go to an interview) and then found out they went with someone else who knew their curriculum. So I went back to the waiting game, and helped my mom at her school. March, April, May went by and nothing materialized. The principal at MRCS offered me a Mat. Leave, with the condition that if anything more permanent came along I was free to take it. June rolled around and still nothing. THIS IS WHERE I HIT BOTTOM in my faith. I was SO angry with God. I was thinking, "HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME GO THROUGH ALL THIS PDP CRAP AND THEN NOT GIVE ME A JOB!!!" I was so frustrated with life and feeling so sorry for myself, and I just didn't know how to handle this disappointment. Then one Sunday at church, the Pastor's Son was preaching, and he told this story about how he and his friends had this awesome idea to use fire extinguishers as jet packs and race down the hall on office chairs. They got all set up and were ready to race, and they pulled the rings on the fire extinguishers, and nothing. No foam, no pressure, no racing. It didn't work. Well he said that this incident really showed him what Faith is like. He said, that we expect that things will be there when we need them. We expect a fire extinguisher to work when we have need of it, but it has to be tested yearly to make sure that it is in working order, because if we just let the fire extinguisher sit and never test it, when we really need it, it won't work. Faith is like that, how do we know if we really have faith? How do we know if our faith is strong?, well, God tests us. He brings hardships into our lives to see if we will continue to be faithful and trust him and allow him to be our strength through those situations, or if we will "stop working"and walk away from him. If he didn't we would never know how much we need him to carry us through. We could go about our daily lives never giving God a second thought, but then when disaster hits, we wouldn't have faith to know that "if he brought us to it, he can bring us through it" as the line goes. Realizing this time of testing wasn't about God being mean, or untrustworthy, or uncaring, but it was him wanting to make me more reliant on him, and have greater faith in his plan and his timing. It still wasn't easy, but seeing it from that perspective made it better.

So the end of August rolled around, and I started getting ready for the classes that I would be teaching at MRCS, and kept trusting God, and praying that something would come along. Then on a whim (or by God's unseen leading, which is what my whims usually are) I checked the SCSBC website to see if there were any job postings, really not thinking there would be cause it was August after all, and there was one for LCS. It was a part time grade 3 position. I "decided" to apply, just to see what would happen. I was called for an interview, and was not really feeling good about it. Firstly, my interview was supposed to be at 4:30, I didn't go in until 5:00. I hadn't eaten yet, and I had worked all day at MRCS. I was tired and cranky by the time I left, and the position was split over 4 days, which wasn't ideal. I went to my friends house, had dinner, and then went home. A few day later I got a phone call saying that I had the job if I wanted it, and had 48 hrs to let them know one way or the other. So I talked to the principal at MRCS and she said that I should take it, cause it was a foot in the door, and the one day a week that I didn't work at LCS, I could still work at MRCS if I wanted (this didn't last long, they slowly phased out my position but I didn't enjoy it anyway ~highschool and L.A.). So I accepted the job, and have not regretted that decision since. I love working at LCS, the staff is great, and I have made so many friends there. I still have my moments and issues where I find it hard to trust in God's timing and his plan for me, but in this situation I definitely know that He was there!