Writing....and music......and God....

So these past few weeks I have been dealing with some things....nothing new to my life....and it has driven me to my knees, to the radio, and to my journal. Yes, besides blogging, I do write in an actual journal as well. I have written in a journal off and on since high school (those entries make me laugh and cringe!) and can't imagine not having a space to write down how I am feeling...This is a no holds barred, get it all out of your system, melodramatic space that I can't live without. I love to write. I find that if I can write down how I am feeling in the moment the pain and the sorrow is lessened. I usually write when I am upset or frustrated. If you read my journals, you would think I am severely depressed and need to be hospitalized immediately (wink wink HAHA) but that is because I use my journal as a therapist. I get out all my emotion, frustration, anger, whatever, and then I can let it go, I can move on. Sometimes however, it is also a place to record words and ideas that God gives me. Now, most people have different ideas and opinions about how God communicates with us, and I think that he uses any means necessary for us to hear him and receive what He is trying to say. For me, it is usually through a song, or a book, or a conversation that we have together, you see I talk to God as if I was talking to a friend who is right in front of me. It seem normal to me, cause he is, after all, my nearest and dearest friend.

Ok, so why am I telling you all this? Well, last night, I was venting in my journal about some things, and then a song that I heard earlier that day popped into my head (now it was the first time I heard it, so I didn't know the song really well, but it's by a group I love, so I remembered the title (which is repeated over and over so that helped too) and I youtubed it. Is Youtube a verb? haha. Anyway, I listened to it, and the words were like a shot through the heart. Have you ever felt that way? Like a song was meant for you? Meant for that precise moment when you heard it? I get that a lot. It usually starts as a shiver, and sometimes it is followed by tears. So, I listened to the song a few more times, and then turned my light on (it was past midnight at this point) and I wrote out the lyrics on the next page of my journal. Every stanza, hit me like waves crashing over me. It is a message I need to hear every day, it is a message everyone needs to hear everyday. It was so amazing... I love it when God shows up like that... He was definitely there.

So here is the song and the Lyrics...

Beautiful ~Mercy Me

Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His